Wow, I haven't written since 2007 and it's now 2009. Oh well. This blog is mostly for me anyway. I once read on my brother-in-law's blog about one of the reasons why he liked to write. He said that he just needed to be heard. I think I feel the same way a lot of times.
I do keep a journal. I haven't written in my journal for a couple of months though. I've written ponderings in other places, but just haven't really wanted to write in my journal. Sometimes there are spots in my life that I don't want to remember all that much and I thought that this was one of those periods of time. I have been so homesick to go home and be with my wife that I have completely buried myself in my work and haven't wanted to take time to reflect on what my life has been like lately. Somehow I felt that losing myself would make it better. I think that a lot of people think that is the best way to deal with things when they have tough times.
I learned, however, that I was wrong. That is the best time to reflect in your life. That is a time for reflection on the good things going on in your life. Instead of focusing on things you don't have or not being where you want to be, reflect on what you do have, and make goals to be better by the time you get back to where it is you want to be. There's a lot of things I can be doing out here to prepare to meet my family, and I've decided to start focusing on that.
Anyway, the rest of my entry will probably just be ramblings if I continue so I think I'll finish for now. The only person that even remembers that I have a blog is my wife, and even if someone else knew, I don't write regularly enough to keep anyone's attention. Maybe that's OK though. I'm not typing to converse or be listened to, but rather just to speak. Sometimes that's the best way to sort thoughts I think. At the beginning of an episode of "The Office" I saw, the secretary, Pam, is shown passing phone calls to the boss, Michael. It shows Michael answering in a really stupid manner, and then Pam passes the call. She said that she doesn't pass him the call right when he answers to give him a practice run and he usually does better the second time. Maybe that's what I'll use this blog for, my practice runs...